This Is How I Live Now

This site brings together a set of experiences that often happen without witnesses or explanations. Nothing here is about a single bad day, a diagnosis, or a dramatic turning point. It’s about what life looks like after repeated adjustments have quietly become routine.

Across the pages, the focus stays on lived moments. Planning that happens automatically. Energy that gets budgeted without discussion. Days that arrange themselves around what the body will allow rather than what was intended. None of these moments arrive all at once, and none of them feel like failure when they happen.

What connects them is recognition. The sense that things are still functioning, but differently. That movement, participation, and presence are all still possible — just shaped by limits that now have a say. The world hasn’t stopped, but it has shifted its expectations.

Nothing here tries to explain why this happens or what should come next. There are no lessons, fixes, or encouragements to change anything. The goal is simply to reflect the full picture as it’s being lived — from early adjustments to the settled realization that this pattern is no longer temporary.

If you recognize yourself in these pages, it’s likely because you’ve already been living this way for some time. This site exists to put words to that reality clearly and calmly, without asking you to justify it, improve it, or move past it.